Happy Birthday "Awful" Gardner

True story.

Nothing in life came cheap for Hezekiah Orville "Awful" Gardner. He came into this world some time in 1825 (no record survives as to the exact date) and died seventy years later languishing in an Insane Asylum. He spent the years in between earning every bit of his nickname – he wasn’t “Awful” as in bad, he was “Awful” as in bad-ass mean – before eventually embarking on one of the most dramatic life turnarounds the sporting public has ever seen.

Awful was a notorious prizefighter in the 1800s, back in an era when bare-knuckle boxing matches could be deadly affairs, more gladiator battles than sporting events. Upon retiring from the ring, he became a trainer of other street-tough boxers like William “Bill the Butcher” Poole and John “Old Smoke” Morrissey. He was also, in his spare time, a reckless drinker, gambler and womanizer, and a murderous thug who ran from the law and eventually found the Lord instead, becoming America's first celebrity athlete turned Christian convert. All this before he was locked up and put away for the rest of his life.

Simply put, Awful Gardner was born to fight, growing up a Bowery thug on the mean streets of New York City where he ran with a tough crowd and made good use of his menacing size and foul temper. As for his ham-fisted, punching ways, he honed that craft in dark alley beatdowns and barroom brawls before the lure of the ring and a ‘real’ career drew him in.

His exploits often found their way into the newspapers of the time – for better and for worse. And why not? Awful was a brute of a man—in and out of the ring. He was the Mike Tyson and Andre the Giant of his time, striking fear in every man he went up against, once even biting off a fellow pugilist’s nose (or some said it was an ear -- whatever).

His biggest triumph in the ring came in 1847 when he beat fellow heavyweight Allen McFee in a 33-round bloodbath that won him sporting recognition from coast to coast.

On the family side of things his story was just as remarkable. Awful was a brother to four other giants, each of whom eventually found a calling as prizefighters as well, including younger brother Howell "Horrible" Gardner. Awful and Horrible. Picture those family gatherings around the dinner table. Oh, how proud Momma Gardner must have been.

But wherever Awful went, trouble followed close behind. He killed a man in a street fight and had to flee to Canada to escape the police. Then, as if that weren’t enough, he had an only son, whom he dearly loved, only to have the boy die in a drowning accident. Sometime shortly after his boy’s death Awful snuck back across the border and came home. According to legend, he was standing at the rail in one of his old haunts, a New York City saloon, when he had a vision.

His mind was clouded with heartbreak and whiskey when he staggered outside to get some air. He couldn’t help but look up into the clear night sky at a particularly bright star.

“I wonder where my little boy is tonight?” he whispered, looking at that star as the tears started forming. “Wherever he is, I’ll never see him again in the hereafter.” Then the thought came quickly, “Not unless I change my life.”

The sweating hulk that was Awful Gardner fell back against the wall and buried his head in his hands, sobbing.

This was it, the pivotal moment of his life. As Providence called, Awful answered. And sure enough, one of the meanest sons of bitches to ever set foot in a boxing ring soon thereafter changed his ways. He gave up drinking and brawling and picked up the Good Book instead. The anger, rage and brute force that had coursed through his veins and consumed him all his life began to dissipate. He became witness to his own miracle, a transformation he wanted to share with others, so he took up – of all things – preaching. 

The man who once served a six-month stretch in Sing Sing for bodily assault returned there not as a prisoner but as a sincere and devout man speaking the Word of God. And it worked. It was reported that through his visits to various prisons and city slums he converted hundreds of lost souls to the Christian way. Even “Horrible” Gardner was compelled to follow the righteous path after his brother got through to him.

No fairy tale is complete without a happy ending, but alas, this is no fairy tale. There would be no happy endings for Awful Gardner. His life ended up being one long losing bout with the devils in his head, even though, as they say, he fought the good fight till the end. The official reason why someone saw fit to commit him to an Insane Asylum is lost to history, but it isn’t too much to assume it had to do with his past catching up with him. (Spend enough time in the ring having another man’s bare fists crash into your head and bad things are going to happen to the brain.)

What does all this have to do with birthdays? Not much, really. Except to say that it’s right and proper to take a moment – as we often do on birthdays – and remember that even the worst in us, in the end, is not beyond hope of redemption.

So Happy Birthday, Awful Gardner, wherever you are. Your story lives on.

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What Every Writer Should Have – A Higher Purpose

How wonderfully fitting it was for me, a writer who loves telling personal and family histories, to find out my surname — Stolt — also happens to be the Swedish word for ‘proud.’

Stolt – proud.

Yes sir, that works damn good by me.

Because almost 120 years ago, on November 26, 1889 to be exact, my paternal grandfather boarded a ship for the first time in his life in the port city of Göteborg, Sweden, and embarked on a weeks-long winter voyage across the North Atlantic that was anything but safe and luxurious. Based on historical record, the boat he was on most likely sailed from Sweden to Great Britain before setting out for a promising but wholly unpredictable new life in America. Traveling by himself that day, he possessed little more than the clothes on his back and a Swedish Bible (Bibeln) given to him the day he sailed – someone’s subtle way of saying there was no going back if things didn’t work out. Falling in line with all the strange faces, he walked up the gangplank and never saw his homeland again.

He was twelve years old.

(Note to self: When I was twelve years old it was all I could do to safely ride my Schwinn 10-Speed bike to a friend’s house a few miles from home.)

Ours is a nation of immigrants, and all of us have a similar story somewhere in our past; it’s part of our collective DNA. Given the times they lived in, our ancestors had no choice but to be strong. They were solid, steady and full of faith. But they were not fearless. Not at all. They had already grown up steeled by life and death risk and hardship the likes of which we can barely imagine in our world today. More than once I’ve asked myself if I could ever be that strong.

In Sweden it’s called försyn, in America the word is providence; but whatever the language and however strong the belief in such things, it’s enough for me to know that Francis Ludwig Johanson, my grandfather, survived the trip across the Atlantic, though in landing in America his perilous journey was nowhere near finished. Upon arrival he quickly found himself surrounded by bustling, chattering crowds, but he didn’t understand a word of their language. (Again, I can’t think of anything I’ve gone through in life that compares to that kind of challenge.)

Here the historical trail goes cold for a while, but somehow Franicis made his way to the town of Bay City in western Wisconsin where he was reunited with his father, who himself had come over two years earlier to put down roots, as they say. By this time his father had legally had his name changed to Stolt upon arriving in the U.S. 

In time, Francis Stolt would grow into manhood and serve his newfound country in the Spanish-American War. Then he worked as a commercial fisherman on the Mississippi River before settling down, getting married, and starting a family of his own.

As for that Swedish Bible he was given, he held on to it for the rest of his life, eventually handing it down to his firstborn, a daughter named Gwendolyn. Years later she gave it to my care, with the understanding that by matter of fate and the Family Tree I would be the last to carry on the name. Today it is one of my most cherished possessions and sits prominently atop my writing desk. As a talisman it brings me good fortune, I hope, and greater purpose, I’m sure.

For as long as I can remember I’ve had a sincere appreciation for anything I can hold in my hands that has lasted longer than a century and still holds a story. As I said, I don’t know every detail of that story, unfortunately, but every time I see that Bible now I imagine a twelve-year-old boy clutching it to his chest in a dank, crowded cabin as it pitched and rolled with every frightful wave, hoping it would somehow bring him luck and safekeeping on the voyage. I look at that Bible now, with its weathered cover and sturdy binding, and it reminds me of the man he grew up to be, and of the good will and common sense he passed down to my father, who passed the same on to me.

Stolt indeed.

I never knew my grandfather – I was barely three years-old when he died in a Veterans nursing home at the age of 86. But thinking and writing about him like this builds a bridge between past and present that may well defy logic but is all too real to me.

It’s a well-circulated axiom that one should always write with a specific audience in mind. I don’t know if that’s true or not. Then again, when it comes to the craft of writing, rules only go so far. All I know is that telling stories about family and honoring the lives of Francis Stolt and others who are gone from this life has been, and probably always will be, the greatest passion and fulfillment of my writing experience. Knowing their stories and legacies will never be lost to history, knowing the examples of how they lived will go on a little longer and maybe reach out a little further means everything to me. In terms of my own writing work, that’s the number one reason I do what I do.

It’s my way of paying them back for the sacrifices they made so I could be who I am today. The way I see it, It’s the least I owe them.

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The One Question That Tells You All You Need to Know (about yourself)

The words have been handed down from antiquity — Know thyself.

I write about the past because I think seeds planted yesterday bear the richest fruit for today when it comes to storytelling, if not life itself. Along those lines, I’ve had the privilege of researching and writing family histories and life stories for several clients over the years. Fair to say, if there’s a favorite niche to my writing, that would be it — recording people’s stories and discovering (recovering?) legacies of their past.

It began when I found my father’s diaries boxed up in the attic years after he had passed away. In reading thirty years of his memories, the narrative story of his life and my life took form, and I ended up writing a book about his life. In the process I learned so much more about him (but oh, the questions I wish even now I could ask).

I was hooked on non-fiction storytelling after that.

“God gives you the best plots.” — Norman Mailer

 

It’s been my experience that one simple question, more than any other, can unlock the doors to our past, and maybe, just maybe, point us in the direction we should be going.

Two years ago a friend commissioned me to write the life story of her parents — both of whom were in their late eighties and had been married for over fifty years. While they were willing to go along with the project, I was told they were both reticent to talk about themselves. Can’t say I blame them. If my wife and I had been in their shoes I would have said the same thing: ‘You want to write a book — about us?’

The closer we got to starting on their memoir, the more I started thinking — where do I start trying to learn about their past? More specifically, what would be my first question to them once I turned on the tape recorder and set it down on the kitchen table in front of them? 

The night before we were to meet, I started writing down what I thought were some good probing questions, but it didn’t take long before that started making me uncomfortable. And if I felt that way already, how would these questions make them feel?

There had to be some way to gently start excavating their past. They must have had some important lessons and stories to impart. After all, they had successfully raised a fine family and stayed married for over fifty years. 

How is such a thing even possible? I said to myself, only somewhat tongue-in-cheek. How can it be that two people can come together, and stay together, for that long?

Then it hit me, and I started crossing off the questions on my list. All save one.

The First Interview

The greetings were sincere and the pleasantries brief but warm while we figured out the best seating arrangement. Again imagining myself in their shoes, I did my best to put my friend’s parents at ease. For their part, they were both as gracious and courteous as could be. Still, there was nervousness in the air. 

Then the tape recorder came out.

The room couldn’t have been quieter, like the Pause button had been pushed on all of us (okay, I told myself, just as long as it didn’t become a Panic button). 

“Okay, folks, let’s get started. Tell me how you two met?”

That was it. That was my shattering, all-encompassing question. It was greeted with total silence, enough to make squirm in my seat.

The silence remained. Then they glanced at each other. They smiled. The wife cleared her throat, and then she started talking. It was a Friday night early in the Spring, at the student lounge on a local college campus. World War Two had ended and there was a feeling of optimism everywhere you went. Then I looked over and saw this handsome young man…

One memory led to another and another. One detail led to another. (So much of any life story is in the details.) Four hours later my tapes were full and we were well on our way to telling a wonderful story.

At the risk of overstating the obvious, nothing was more influential to you being who you are than the day your parents first met. Nothing formed you, more than their DNA, their attitudes, and their examples of how to live life. In that sense they are as much a part of you as an arm or a leg. So why not learn all you can about them?

Tomorrow is promised for no one. Stories, like people, all eventually disappear. And once they’re gone, they’re gone for good.

“History is the present. That’s why every generation writes it anew.” — E.L. Doctorow

Unless…

Unless you take the time now to ask questions and get to know more about their lives and writing down what they tell you. Unless you make the effort to ask your parents how they met, the central piece to the puzzle that is your life will forever be missing. If they are a little reluctant to answer, keep at it. Have fun with it. Remember, everyone has a story, and deep down everyone wants to tell their story.

So pay it back. Pay it forward. It doesn’t have to an entire memoir, but it could make a hell of a good short story. If not for your sake, do it for your own children. Some day they’ll want to how their grandparents met. 

Learn more about your backstory. Gain inspiration in their story and everything they overcame. And please, write it down.

Trust me, you’ll be glad you did.

Why Coaches Matter

Co-authored by:

Mark Gmach, president and owner of MG-Insights

Kent Stolt, freelance writer

 

 

 

 

 

“A good coach can change a game; a great coach can change a life.” – John Wooden

 

 

How motivated are you to change your life? How clear are you with your vision of success and the steps you need to take to get there? What does success look like to you four weeks from now? Six months from now? In a year?

If you’re absolutely confident with your answers to these questions – congratulations! If, however, you’re not so sure, then maybe you should think about connecting with a professional coach.

Few will serve you better as a catalyst for change and making your vision a reality than a good coach, someone with the skill, insight and tools to help you live the change you desire.

Too often people look to leaders for inspiring change in themselves when maybe what they really need is a coach or mentor.  

If you are thinking about getting a coach, here are some more things to consider

Coaching and Leadership are not necessarily the same thing.

Certainly, there is room for overlap here – good coaches often have the natural-born instincts of leadership, but even the best of leaders are not necessarily good coaches.  Therein lies a subtle but critical distinction.

Leaders, by definition, stand at the forefront of success. Possessed of vision, insight and a wealth of life lessons learned, they yearn to cast a vision and inspire others to reach a common goal.

Coaches fill a critical but different role at a hands-on level. They ask the right questions and often unearth the answers found within yourself. They guide. They teach, as well as inspire. Whether working one-on-one or with a team, they have the instinctive desire and capability to be a catalyst for enhancing professional growth and development in others. They are able to channel and focus an individual’s desire to grow.

Once thought of only in the context of organized sports, professional coaches are today found in almost every corner of life: from business, careers and finance to diet, exercise and relationships. Where there used to be a stigma of weakness, of remedial learning, attached to being coached, nowadays it’s practically a badge of honor—you’d be hard-pressed to find a top performer in athletics or business today who doesn’t employ a coach of some kind.

There are no easy fixes to professional growth and development.

According to a survey of 140 leading coaches published in the Harvard Business Review in 2009, here are the top three reasons why coaches are engaged:

1.      To develop high potentials or facilitate transitions.

2.      To act as a sounding board for ideas

3.      To address derailing behavior.

The Harvard report goes on to say, “Executives who get the most out of coaches have a fierce desire to learn and grow.” Before engaging with a coach, it has to be understood that coaches don’t do the work for you; they create a framework for the work that lies ahead. Coaches don’t get results; they prompt you to get the results you want. Stated another way, coaches help others find the answers that were in them all along.

In the words of legendary basketball coach John Wooden, “Nothing will work unless you do.”

Good coaching borrows from the disciplines of consulting and therapy.

Like choosing any partner, success or failure with a coach depends on the two of you being a good fit. Reputation, experience and charged rates don’t mean much if trust and accountability are lacking.

Good coaches are not necessarily subject matter experts, but they are human behavior experts. As stated in the Harvard Business Review report, “It (coaching) starts out with a business bias and inevitably migrates to ‘bigger issues’ such as life purpose, work/life balance, and becoming a better leader.”

Like any therapist or consultant, the best coaches strive to understand their client’s needs and personality. Again, they ask the right questions about who the client is and what they desire from a coaching relationship. From there they collaborate with the client to create a game plan, an incremental strategy, that will help them reach their goals.

Above all, a coach always puts the client’s vision and best interests first.

The key to implementing effective behavioral change lies in focusing on the head and heart, which reveals the how and why behind achieving winning results. That’s why coaches matter, and that’s why the right coach can change a life.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Before They Were Your Parents

Clarence and Carol Stolt wedding picture



 

They were young once, just like you. Like you they had hopes, dreams and passionate desires – things far removed from their later world of retirement, Medicare and remembering to take their daily medication. They were your parents, and hard as it may be to imagine, there was a time when they were living, breathing, young people.

I bring this up because of a small black and white photograph that a cousin sent me a while back. She found it going through a pile of old photographs, and she mailed it to me after writing a simple note on the back: “Your parents.”

And sure enough, there’s my father as a young man, fresh-faced and confident, dressed in a double-breasted suit no doubt quite the style in the 1930s. He’s standing beside a woman wearing an equally fashionable dress of the period. One small problem. The woman in the picture is not my mother. 

It's wisely been said that every good photograph holds a secret, a story behind the image that is mysterious and tantalizingly untold. Then again, it's also been said that photographs can lie and deceive like no other.

So what to make of this?

Before I go any further, let me state for the record that my parents met in 1945 when Dad was 29 years old. They married two years later and stayed together faithfully until he passed away in 1976. That much I know without a doubt. However, as there’s no one left who can provide any answers, the woman in the photograph will have to remain a mystery.

Not that any of that matters now. Sometime before he got married Dad had a girlfriend. So what. Well, in my mind this triggered an intriguing, if playful, thought: What if the relationship between Dad and this woman had gone differently? What if it had led to them getting married and raising a family?

I certainly wouldn’t be who I am now. I guess I wouldn’t even be here writing this. So needless to say, I’m glad things worked out the way they did. And I can’t overstate the fact that I could never have wished for better parents. This is not about regret.

But my point still stands. Nothing calls to wonder the convergence of fate and family more than thinking about how one’s parents got together.

Following that train of thought, and with the aid of some surviving family archives, I decided to do a little digging into my past.

In 1945 my father Clarence Stolt was working for the Veterans Administration in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. More specifically, he was working in that agency’s Vocational Rehabilitation Department. World War Two was nearing its end and it was his job to help returning veterans find work or vocational training so they could begin to get on with their civilian lives. In light of the numbers of men coming home from overseas and the newly signed GI Bill, this was no small bureaucratic task.

He started working for the VA in August of 1944 at an annual salary of $2,600. This was after he had volunteered to join the Navy right after Pearl Harbor, but a serious case of rheumatic fever waylaid those plans and he had to take a medical discharge. The next best way for him to serve his country was to work for the VA.

One morning in the Spring of ‘45 his newly assigned secretary (that’s what they were called back then) walked into his office and introduced herself. A shy girl with a pretty smile, Carol Thompson came from a small town in Wisconsin schooled in dictation, typing and stenography. Along with her sister she moved to Milwaukee looking for office work and the chance to see what life was like beyond the farm.

It was a far simpler time in the workplace in those days, and Clarence and Carol worked together for a few months, gradually getting to know more about each other, until one day shortly after V-J (Victory over Japan) Day he slipped a note into the ‘Incoming’ basket on Carol’s desk. Would she like to go out for dinner with him?

She said yes, and their first date was at a downtown American Legion club overlooking Lake Michigan. Right away the sights and sounds of the place impressed her: the tables draped in crisp white linens, the clinking of glasses and buzz of conversation coming from the bar, waiters dashing back and forth from the kitchen.

Together they spent the evening talking, eating, probably dancing to the orchestra band playing there that night. And after that first date, well, things went well from there. By the end of 1945 they were dating steady. Two years later they were married in a country church outside Carol's hometown, and the eventual means of my coming to be were set in motion.

I think about that when I feel stuck in my own day to day life. I think about that picture of my father and a girlfriend, and then I think about my parent’s wedding portrait, and I feel a sense of purpose again.

Because you can pretty much count me in the camp of Sigmund Freud and others who say there are no accidents in life. Certainly not when it comes to who your parents are and how they met. But wherever you happen to fall on that subject, remember this: 

·         We are each quite literally one of a kind. A lot of people from generations past helped make you who you are today.

·         Find inspiration from your past. See above.

 

 

 

Nothing Ever Stays the Same

The following was written in 1985 by my sister Wendy Stolt, a Professor of Social Work at Concordia University, who passed away suddenly last month at the tender young age of 66.

“During the past twelve years I have had the opportunity to view what life can be like for those over 80 years of age. I do not speak from the experience of growing old itself — I have yet to be 80 years old. I have yet to experience a serious health problem. I have yet to experience what it is like to be at the end of one’s lifetime. Rather, I speak from my experience in working with the elderly. They have been my teachers. And from them I have learned a great deal. I have had the privilege of hearing about good times and the not-so-good times. I have also learned that life is not always fair. I have been wisely advised that ‘the first 100 years are the hardest — after that life gets easier.’

During the past twelve years I have come to know many people and become familiar with some of the issues which confront older people today. Now I’d like to share some of my learning with you. 

·   I know an 85 year-old gentleman who strongly believes that God saves the his hardest part until last. He views his life as a journey. The hardest part of his journey is right now — coping with his limited vision and his arthritis. Hanging on the wall in his room is a sign which reads “Old Age is Not for Sissies.”

·   I know a 92 year-old woman who continues to purchase Este Lauder’s Age-Controlling Creme at $40.00 a half-ounce. She continues to purchase dresses which she describes as ‘stylish’ and cost an average of $100 apiece. She also prefers the company of men as she finds it easier to trust them.

·   I know a 93 year-old woman who likes to recall her active social life of years ago. Going out to dinner or entertaining at home was always special for her. Even though entertaining no longer plays an important part in her life, those good memories are still with her. And whenever she talks of the past there is a noticeable sparkle in her eye.

·   I know a 95 year-old woman who experienced the death of her only daughter this year. The grief is still felt — she hasn’t figured out why God did not take her instead. This has become a real struggle for her.

A little over a year ago I delivered a birthday card to a nursing home resident who was turning 96 years old. It was right before Christmas. I told her it was hard to believe her age. During our visit she began to tell of family holiday gatherings. She spoke warmly of the people in her past — her mother, her father and her sister. This particular Christmas she would be alone. And then, acknowledging the beginning of her 96th year, she remarked “…nothing ever stays the same.”

Nothing ever stays the same. How true that is for all of us. Just think of how many changes we make in our lifetime. Think of the many hellos and goodbyes we say. As a young child we say goodbye to mom and say hello to the kindergarten teacher and fellow classmates. As a family we may leave one neighborhood, saying goodbye to friends we have made there, and move to a new neighborhood or city where we say hello to new ones. As a young adult we say goodbye to mom and dad to live away from home for the first time. 

When you think about it, so much of life involves changing, letting go, moving on. Making changes often involves at least some sense of loss. Loss is part of life, part of being alive. Loss plays a far more encompassing theme in our lives than we realize. 

When we think of loss we usually think of obvious instances, such as the death of a loved one, a divorce, a separation or breakup of a romance. Other not so obvious losses may include the loss of youth, health, money, job, childhood dreams, hair, even our teeth. Then there are the innumerable ‘mini-losses’ that add up during the course of a day, a week or a lifetime: an unexpected dent in the car, an argument with a friend, losing the car keys.

Knowing we all experience loss, beginning at birth, it becomes a fact of life itself that the longer we live, the more loss we will experience. Age will burden us profoundly before we are done. 

Thus, learning to live with loss becomes a predominant theme of old age. Society in general does not value its old people, and as a result older people too often do not value themselves. A low self-esteem, combined with recurring losses, will leave anyone vulnerable to depression and grief.

The purpose of grief is to let go of what has been and is no more. Grief is hard work. It is important to the healing process that we be with the pain and feel the hurt. Feelings need to be expressed. The sooner we allow ourselves to be with the pain, the sooner it will pass. Still, the process of healing is neither orderly, predictable, nor smooth. 

But given time, healing does occur — the pain does lessen. One does survive. When the pain decreases, the understanding grows. The higher understanding that tells us change and separation are a natural, inevitable and necessary part of life.

Because indeed nothing ever stays the same.

So true. Rest in peace, Wendy.